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Do Not Ignore The Burns On Your Skin

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            As a child, I was not afraid of fire. Every Chinese New Year, I had my fair share of playing with an assortment of fireworks with my sister and all the other children in the neighbourhood. Some were really fire hazardous such as firecrackers and the rocket.   During lantern festival, we would play with those paper lanterns and also had fun melting the mixture of the extra candles with fire.             During my youth, I had my fair share of burning rubbish at the garden of my home and also helped out with starting barbeques using inflammable materials.   Looking back, I was quite ignorant of the dangers of being burn and this applies to most Malaysians as well.   Most of us are not aware that burn injuries can be complicated and difficult to heal depending on the degree of the burn. I’m not in the medical field, so my sharing below is just a simple explanation of the severity of the ...

Children At The ICU

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           When I was in the state of medical induced coma, my nightmares were terrible and vivid. In my nightmares, I was being constantly tortured by nurses and doctors. Some nightmares even repeated themselves, like a bad movie. Pain, anxiety, frustration and all of the negative emotions could be felt in my nightmares. Feeling confused and frightened, there was a desperation in me as I didn’t know where I was and wanted to go home or at least inform my parents that I will not be home so soon.   There were also silhouettes of dark figures outside the room, looking in, as if waiting for something to happen.             After regaining consciousness around 2 and a half months from the date of my accident, I remembered hearing and seeing children playing outside of my room in the ICU. In the middle of the night, usually after 9.00pm to nearly midnight. There was a particular boy, whom I suspected to be the ...

The Day I Came Out From The ICU

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              I’ve stayed in the ICU for a long time that I was excited yet a bit worried about being transferred out from the ICU into the burn ward.               There were a few nurses in my room that morning, preparing me for the move. A male nurse said, “Eileyn, you are the Assistant Village Chief of the ICU”. I was staring at him in bewilderment, puzzled by his statement.              “Huh? What are you talking about?” I asked in my barely audible voice, unsure whether I had misheard him earlier. He then explained that the longest staying patient at the ICU was more than 4 months whereas I was there for the duration of nearly 4 months only.   Therefore, that makes me the 2 nd longest staying patient there. I honestly didn’t know how to react to this. Part of me felt amused by his statement but another part of me had the revelation that I am lucky to be alive. ...

ICU

           The first few memories that I had when I was conscious was that when I open my mouth, no voice came out. I couldn’t speak and my throat hurts. I could feel thick phlegm stuck at my throat, restricting my breathing. They had to use a suction machine and tubes to help suck out the phlegm from my throat through a hole that they puncture in the middle of my neck.               I could hardly move.   Muscles had wasted away due to lack of movement. They call it muscle atrophy.   I was bandaged from head to toe.            Once a while, a loud beeping sound could be heard from the left side of my room. I remembered my sister assuring me not to worry, and that the “beeping” means that the “medicine is finished”. Unbeknownst to me at that time, it was a multiple syringes pump dispenser for the different types of medications that were being administered to me through the righ...

The Dream

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          A myriad of strange looking colourful patterns were above me. There were many beautiful colours that I was unfamiliar with. All this while, a light melodious song was being played in the background.  I have never beholden such a sight or hear such a tune before.  I was floating on air feeling free.   Suddenly, a loud voice spoke to me, "Come on, come on, take your responsibility!" .             Jolted out of my dreamy state, a sudden realisation hit me, "What am I doing? I need to find my bed", I told myself.             Lowering myself slowly, I felt like a spider suspended above the ceiling swinging on a big web.  As I slide down the web, the music sounded heavier and louder, akin to heavy metal or hard rock. F aces and images of famous dead people, appeared to me, many of whom I couldn’t recognise .   However, there were two faces that somewhat...

At The Hospital

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       When the ambulance finally reached the hospital, I was rolled with a wheelchair to the emergency section. During admission, a lady at the registration asked some questions.            Having answered her questions, she then looked at me and said, “This hospital only accepts burn patients who are burnt 35% and below. Yours looks like 50% and above. I am sorry, we can’t accept you here”. Surprised by her statement, I asked, “Then where should I go?” She replied, “You can ask the ambulance to bring you to any hospital that you want. You can go to Lam Wah Ee Hospital or elsewhere”. Despite the pain and shock, I was lucky that I still had some clarity of mind. “If Penang General Hospital, the biggest hospital in Penang doesn’t want to accept me, which other private hospital would accept me?”, I asked her.   “I still want to be admitted here”, I insisted. Somehow, I instinctively felt that time would b...

The Gas Explosion

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           That night I woke up groggily, awaken ed by the smell of gas. In my dazed and groggy state, somehow there was a realisation that the strong smell was coming from the kitchen. My room, located just above the kitchen.  Rushing down, I headed towards the kitchen and proceeded to the gas stove.                         Trying to make sure that the knob on the stove was switched off; suddenly a spark ignited.  There was a loud deafening explosion. It happened in front of my face.   “I am going to die!” that was the thought that crossed my mind. As the horror of this realisation hits me, suddenly I felt something protecting me, some sort of a shield in front of me, especially on my face.            I fell back from the impact of the explosion. Glass and plates shattered. Things around me were melting from the heat. It felt really...