Friday, August 10, 2018

He's coming!!

I have been told by experienced mothers that when the baby is coming, our body will signal to you to prepare for his/her coming.  Physically and sometimes in dreams. I have mothers who shared they dreamt of their baby’s birth, which signaled to them their baby is coming soon.

I had shared with dates with my friends last year, which I would reproduce below:-

1)Sep 7 - First dream: giving birth with sensations of pushing the baby. Saw the baby staring at me and vice versa. I noticed an umbilical cord 

2)Sep  8 - noticed slight menstrual like cramp ( once a day) continuously happen for next few days until Sep 11. 

3)Sep 11 - Second Dream: seeing my son crawling around with cloth diapers. Crying, and I picked him up to comfort him. Walking around with colourful diaper on his back.

4)Sep 13 - Third Dream: my tummy goes down flat. Feel my intestines going down. Feel a big pressure around vagina area. Feel like pushing… I even heard the word - “PUSH!”. The sensation of pushing lingers a couple of seconds longer after I woke up.

5)Sep 14 after midnight…. felt my first painful contraction at my lower belly that lasted almost ten seconds. Then second one… more than an hour later before I sleep. Feel like singing Amazing Grace. Which I did… calmed me down, went to sleep

6)Sep 14 2017, woke up hungry at 5.20am. 6.08am -first time feel sensation of expanding feel near my vagina area… (was told is cervix opening) so far no more of painful contractions feeling now.

7)Sep 16 2017 - Dreamt I was in the hospital, walking around to be ready. Ket was with me. I was resting on a sofa in the next scene. Suddenly my tummy kinda deflated.. and I see the shape of my son in my tummy, which outline the shape of my son. I can see his eyes, nose and shape of his body clearly. Suddenly realised amniotic fluid burst, and I feel I need to push.

I woke up ... lay down for a few minutes… suddenly….at 5.44am, I felt contractions pain… then, within a few minutes time, again contractions…but now no more… 
Suddenly I heard Amazing Grace in the background… and I think for a while, I thought I hear a chorus of voices singing… For more than a minute… When this stopped… I suddenly hear these words clearly, “Be ready.” … Twice… 

Then I switch on the lights... alert… and waiting for the next contractions... so far none. Except tightening of uterus…

My dreams were certainly vivid, to prepare me for my son’s coming birth! 

At 34- 35 weeks, I can feel his head faced down towards my pelvic. The extra pressure caused added pain to my hips. No longer I experienced rib pain whenever his head pushed against my left rib. 

My doctor was expecting my baby to come naturally between 36-37 weeks. I was having these signs of birth. Although I was happy about it yet concerned would it be too early? Yet if this happen naturally, who am I to argue with nature? 

Although there were painful instances where I had to walk in pain daily, especially when going up the stairs and when I needed to stand up from my chair. I had to consciously tell myself that this is part of my pregnancy symptoms. I am to accept. Not resent. 

came to appreciate the little things which I took for granted prior pregnancy - sleeping on my back ( I had to sleep sitting up for 3-4 months), lacking of sleep ( I used to feel sleeping for 6 hours was not enough. Yet now I had to make do with three hours of sleep at night), my heightened senses which made me rather stay at home than go out. 

The amazing feeling of a moving baby inside me, especially in response to my singing and talking to him.
While patiently, or rather at times impatiently waiting for the birth, I immortalised my feelings in a poem below ( shared in my Facebook):-

Here it comes! Here it comes!
My feet gonna fly off the ground!
The surges growing stronger

And it’s progressively longer.
The ache, ache, oh my ache.
My pelvic gonna drop anytime
Waddle like a penguin
My body seem to be on running engine. 
Oh yes! Oh Yes! This is THE sign!
Nearing to the finishing line.
My feet gonna run like the wind
Waiting for the right time.
When I feel like go,
Then suddenly the show no flow.
And I gooooooo… sloowwwwww
Another sun rises once more,
Body occasionally growing sore
This waiting game testing my Patience

or maybe I am being tested how Present. 

I know this wait is worth it
No need to throw a fit.
Just eat, pray, meditate and chill
I know you’re coming.

Good things take time
The sun shall rise and shine.
Wait I shall, my lovely son.
Yet what else can I do?
( 21/9/2017)
© Cordelia Lee

P/s - not yet admitted to hospital. The symptoms are growing day to day though but insufficient to get admitted...

My son, where are you?? I am still waiting for you!

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