Monday, November 26, 2018
I was watching a Korean drama a few days ago when the protagonist in that drama was burn in a fiery explosion. A year later (in the drama) after undergoing plastic surgery, the protagonist came out with a new face and hardly any scarring. I had to keep reminding myself that it was just a drama, and that it did not portray real life.
Many people do not understand that once skin is burn, the skin will not be the same anymore, depending on the degree of the burn. There is a general misconception that plastic surgeons can make the skin normal and smooth as what you see on television. Most of what we see on television are merely illusions. Once the skin is burn, depending on the severity of the burn, there will be scarring, hypertrophic scarring and in certain cases keloids.
What is the difference between hypertrophic scarring and keloids?
Basically, hypertrophic scarring are visible and elevated scars that does not grow beyond the original wound, whereas keloids are raised scars that grows beyond the original wound and surrounding tissues. Itchiness is a common problem for hypertrophic scarring and keloids.
People who tend to get keloids are of Asians and Africans descendants. When keloids become too big, it may restrict movements at certain joint areas and turn into contractures. This may impede mobility or restrict the range of movement. During my stay at the burn ward, I kept hearing horror stories of contractures from the nurses that I began to worry that the same would happen to me. Despite the assurance from the plastic doctor that it is unlikely to happen, I was still worried as I have seen the effect on those who suffered from it.
Do scars or keloids gets lighter in time to come? I have spoken to some burn survivors and those who have been burn years ago, it seems there are improvement on the colour of their scars. As for myself, I have hypertrophic scarring and keloids all over my body. Even though my scars are less reddish now, I would probably have to wait for a few more years to see if there is any other improvement.
The best way to flatten the hypertrophic scarring and keloids is to wear pressure garments and apply silicone gel or silicone gel sheet to soften the keloids. There are various products and brands in the market for silicone gel and silicone scar sheet. They can be quite expensive, especially when you have a wide area to cover.
Example of different brands of silicone scar sheet products available
Does silicone scar sheet and silicone gel works? So far, they do help to soften scars. I don't expect miracles to happen with any products as I have scars all over my body. The best is to keep on experimenting to find suitable products. As long as the keloids stays soft, doesn’t grow bigger or too hard and causes restriction on range of movement, that would be good enough for me.
Most of the burn patients are required to wear compression garment when the wounds are sufficiently healed. If possible for 23 hours per day. I have a love and hate relationship with my compression garments. I was informed that they are made from lycra. Initially, they can be really tight and difficult to put on. It does take time to get used to them.
When I was first fitted with my compression garment by the occupational therapist, I was horrified when my arms and legs turn purplish blue. At that time, my blood circulation was quite bad due to immobility. We had to remove the compression garments and the occupational therapist had to modify them, to make them slightly loose. Sometimes I would alternate and wear a different type of compression cloth which is softer and less tight, especially when I don’t feel like struggling with my compression garment for the day. One of the brand that I use is Tubigrip. Depending on the length that you want it to be, it can be cut accordingly. This product is easily available at the pharmacy.
It is indeed challenging to live with hypertrophic scarring and keloids especially when you live in a society that is constantly bombarded with commercials and mass media that emphasised on beauty and perfection. If a normal person feels self conscious, what more a person with hypertrophic scarring and keloids? From my experience, I have learnt that self acceptance and loving myself is the key to living with this condition.
Tuesday, November 13, 2018
“The lotus comes from the murkiest water but grows into the purest thing”
Make tea with the stamens
- Nita Ambani
From ancient times, the lotus has been associated with purity and beauty as it is difficult to believe that such a clean and beautiful flower can emerge, untainted by the dirty and muddy water. As a result of this, the lotus is often mentioned or used as a symbolism in many religions.
Around 6 months ago, a friend of mine from Kuala Lumpur visited me, bringing with her a lotus plant. It was a gift from herself and another friend who initially grew lotuses as a hobby, which then turn into a business.
At first, I was quite apprehensive in receiving such a gift as we never had a lotus plant at home before and I was concern that it will perish from neglect.
My lotus grower friend however assured me that the lotus plant is quite resilient and that it needed minimal care. However, he did remind me to put fertiliser (for aquatic plants) into the pot every 2 to 3 weeks and to add abate to prevent mosquitoes as I wasn’t keen on rearing fishes.
Whenever the lotus blooms, it is indeed a beautiful and breathtaking sight. My amateurish photography skill does not do justice to the plant. Below are some photos of the plant: -
The whole plant is useful: -
· The stems and roots can be eaten as vegetable
· The leaves can be used to wrap Chinese sticky rice.
· The flower petals and stamens can be used as tea
· The seeds can be eaten and made into paste
· The dried lotus pod can be used as a decoration
Make tea with the stamens
This is indeed a beautiful and useful plant to have at home. If you have the space at home, do consider planting a lotus plant. A big pot can be used if you have limited space.
In my personal view, a lotus truly represents that no matter how hard life gets or how badly it treats us; emerging as a better person despite our bad experiences is a choice that we can make. Don’t ever let bad experiences turn us into a bitter and pessimistic person. Instead, turn the bad experiences into lessons that help to propel us into a better future.
Wednesday, November 7, 2018
Sometimes when life seems unbearable, don’t forget to breath and appreciate the present moment. When we are in pain and emotionally drain, we tend to ignore our surroundings and the beauty of life around us.
The first time I was rolled out in a wheelchair from the burn ward, it felt so good to feel the warm air outside. It had been really cold in the ward. Nearly freezing. Just to get out of the burn ward, felt so comforting, I could finally feel the gentle breeze outside.
After a few times of going out, my sister bought one of those bubble soap toys. This one had a Hello Kitty head on top of the long cylinder container.
“I am not strong enough to blow this yet. I’ll be out of breath,” I told her.
My sister replied, “This is not for blowing, it is for waving. You just need to wave your arm.”
So off we went playing bubbles at the hospital compound. Even though I was still hesitating, part of me was excited to try it out. Waving my hand for the first time, nothing happened. I dip into the bottle again and waved, still no bubbles.
“You need to wave harder,” my sister said. She took the stick from me and started waving. Multiple big bubbles came out from the waving stick.
Despite trying my best, I only managed to produce small bubbles. My arms were not strong enough. This was the most ‘fun’ exercise I had, compared to the other exercises that I had to do.
Bubbles were flying everywhere. Disappearing as fast as we could make them. It must have been such a sight for the bystanders at the hospital seeing both of us waving our arms wildly while looking for the right wind direction. We even went upstairs, waving the stick at an open area. I felt like a mischievous child again. It felt so good that it didn’t matter whether we look silly or not.
Looking back, I am really appreciative of my sister’s occasional effort in cheering me up. It was not easy to stay at the hospital for a long duration of time.