Yet there it was. That unmistaken sign.
I ran out from the toilet, shouting, "It's positive! POSITIVE!"
My husband maintained his silence while continued his prayers.
I wanted to confirm once more of my pregnancy. A few days later I bought Clearblue pregnancy kit. Again it stated I am pregnant. This time highlighted the estimated number of weeks of pregnancy.
|My pregnancy kit that revealed the number of weeks of my pregnancy|
I would either get easily irritated or more emotional than before. Only with meditation and prayers I shall be able to calm and relax my mind, emotions especially my body. The deeper the relaxation the longer the effects would last during the day.
I suddenly felt compelled to go into YouTube. To search for a particular song; "How far I'll go." It was from the animation film Moana. I kept replaying it. My emotions rising higher and higher. All of a sudden, a thought came - my dreams finally come true. I paused at that. What dreams? What come true? No answer came to mind.
|Coming of new dawn, bringing new dreams and hopes to me. |
Photo taken by my mobile.
For suddenly I kept obsessively listening to the same song. I cannot explain what difference I felt in my body. I casually linked to hormonal changes of my coming menses. And it had been delayed. Likely this is due to lack of physical rest.
She would lead the participants to do Shankhaprakshalana yoga asanas that would have the reaction of participants rushing for the toilet. Myself and my husband will conduct Qigong and other aspect of wellness.
My husband felt we should experience Shankhaprakshalana. We made arrangements on a Thursday or Friday to do the exercise in the following week, preferably a Monday.
Nahh, I don't think so. However, I cannot ignore this feeling. Don't do the detox. Don't. That thought kept rising in me whenever I thought of detox.
Consciously I was convinced I was not pregnant. Yet what harm to get a pregnancy kit.
To my surprise and to my husband - the test revealed that I AM pregnant.