One Year Passed
The closest and greatest support would be my husband. He has tirelessly taken care of us even when he is exhausted from work. He would encourage me when my emotions became affected. I am blessed I have a good husband and a good dad to Patrick. For with his presence made our lives complete and loving.
One good example is my mother. I always underestimated her. There were moments I did not expect she would show her strength yet she always step up. My mother has always been afraid to get hurt yet willing to open her heart fully to Patrick. She admitted to me when she thinks of Patrick, there are moments tears come to her eyes. I assured my mother that we will do all we can to help Patrick and not to worry too much of something that we have no control over.
To focus on Positivity and on Hope. Not on negative thoughts. Not on complaints of how unfair people are to us, of their lacking of empathy or sympathy. Not focus on why Patrick has such bad luck. Not focus on God why He did not heal Patrick completely. Because all these venting, complaining are tiring, finger pointing, destructive and only added onto emotional turbulence that sees no solution and resolution.
Having a chaotic mind was like howling winds where you cannot hear your inner voice. Fears and anxiousness shall entrap us within, only suggests to us dead ends, locked doors and no resolutions. When our minds are more free by calmness and clarity, when our hearts are more stable, only then can we see clearly the best possible routes to help Patrick.
Then there were occasional bleeding in the stools, however based upon inspection, it appeared to be mostly due to abrasions to the anus opening area. If the blood looked black together with the poo, we should be more worried for that meant internal bleeding in the intestines. So far, the blood appeared to be red. Recently this month, he vomited blood. Oh, how I was on edge.
|Patrick relying on me for emotional support and encouragement|
|Incredible boy from The Incredibles family.|